Post by falguerra on Jun 11, 2012 8:51:53 GMT -5
This is the personal journal of Erzebet Falguerra.
I am not some simpering child who doesn't like to be told "no". I am not a school marm who has had it with impossible students. And yet, I feel like making a fit or scolding is the only way to get my point accross anymore. Ah, I sound like a spoiled brat I'm sure, complaining about things without giving a context. It is true, to know my frustrations one must live the life of a Ministry employee during the time of Fudge.
When I first started at the ministry, I was fresh out of Hogwarts. I did alright on my NEWTS and OWLS, but I was not well known. I started as a clerk and displayed an aptitude for aggressive spell work I haven't really gotten on good with all of my coworkers, many find my way of working to be abrasive. I began to notice things...like how the more dangerous the rumor, the more likely the Ministry is to attempt to deny it. It did not feel good, risking my life just to have someone say "Oh that didn't happen, it was a gas leak!"
It was hard enough leaving my sister Isla at school, but I could not stay once I had finished my schooling. I know not to call her Isla, but I like to think that my sister is willing to allow me that little indulgence, at least in my journal. Her owls keep me sane in that regard; I'm not completely going crazy with worry knowing that she is actually in good health. I think she does not like this...me being so pushy, so quick to question and judge her decisions. She does not realize that it is not her that I distrust. I have confidence in her intelligence and judgement. She is my sister, and of my blood, why wouldn't she be able to survive Hogwarts? No, I dont' trust the people around her. The professors do well enough, but they have fallen lax, content to teach them how to levitate feathers when they should be teaching them how to fend for themselves. Not everyone has the luxury and protection of a big family, political influence, or a manor to go home to, after all. And in my years with the Ministry I have never seen dangerous madmen pass up a chance to prey on the vulnerable. How many children will Greyback have to tear apart before people realize this?
What was that rant about? Well, I was called into the office of my superior in the Department of Law Enforcement. He saw fit to serve me with written papers and a reprimand. Told me they "frown" on "indiscriminate curses" and "violent retaliation". He told me how I should not resort to destructive magic just because they aren't one of the Unforgivable Curses. I didn't see this coming actually. I had thought they'd be happy that I managed to take down some suspicious dark wizards, who obviously were going to do more harm than good. I didn't see too many Aurors giving me the stink-eye, but the prim and proper folk in the Ministry like to appear one way and act another. These were dangerous people. If they had managed to send that item to a muggle, or worse, a student at Hogwarts, and it killed them, would they be so quick to turn these monsters into martyrs? Would they be so quick to punish me for doing my job when we have Voldemort alive and well? Everyone who looks like his ally must be treated like his ally, that is the only way to keep people safe.
Thomas
Diggory
Prewitt
Longbottom
Bones
Crouch
Potter
Black
...Falguerra...I found an old picture of our parents today, they looked happy. They were in the "old country", dressed for a wedding, I think. Oh, Ilsa looks so much like father...and momma...before she went to Azkaban.
The list goes on and on. I know their names and will not forget them, because they, like so many others, are who paid the price for our complacency.
I wanted to tell him where he could shove his reprimand. But, because I love my job, and need the money, I nod, apologize, and leave with my tail between my legs. But I know the truth...
We should not be shielding ourselves from the reality of Voldemort's return. We should embrace the panic this causes, the fear we feel as we think back to the First Wizarding War and remember what he is capable of. We should inform the muggles, bolster the aurors, and follow the example of the late Barty Crouch Sr. A few "innocent" Death Eaters in Azkaban are a small price to pay for thes safety of the entire wizarding world.
I am not some simpering child who doesn't like to be told "no". I am not a school marm who has had it with impossible students. And yet, I feel like making a fit or scolding is the only way to get my point accross anymore. Ah, I sound like a spoiled brat I'm sure, complaining about things without giving a context. It is true, to know my frustrations one must live the life of a Ministry employee during the time of Fudge.
When I first started at the ministry, I was fresh out of Hogwarts. I did alright on my NEWTS and OWLS, but I was not well known. I started as a clerk and displayed an aptitude for aggressive spell work I haven't really gotten on good with all of my coworkers, many find my way of working to be abrasive. I began to notice things...like how the more dangerous the rumor, the more likely the Ministry is to attempt to deny it. It did not feel good, risking my life just to have someone say "Oh that didn't happen, it was a gas leak!"
It was hard enough leaving my sister Isla at school, but I could not stay once I had finished my schooling. I know not to call her Isla, but I like to think that my sister is willing to allow me that little indulgence, at least in my journal. Her owls keep me sane in that regard; I'm not completely going crazy with worry knowing that she is actually in good health. I think she does not like this...me being so pushy, so quick to question and judge her decisions. She does not realize that it is not her that I distrust. I have confidence in her intelligence and judgement. She is my sister, and of my blood, why wouldn't she be able to survive Hogwarts? No, I dont' trust the people around her. The professors do well enough, but they have fallen lax, content to teach them how to levitate feathers when they should be teaching them how to fend for themselves. Not everyone has the luxury and protection of a big family, political influence, or a manor to go home to, after all. And in my years with the Ministry I have never seen dangerous madmen pass up a chance to prey on the vulnerable. How many children will Greyback have to tear apart before people realize this?
What was that rant about? Well, I was called into the office of my superior in the Department of Law Enforcement. He saw fit to serve me with written papers and a reprimand. Told me they "frown" on "indiscriminate curses" and "violent retaliation". He told me how I should not resort to destructive magic just because they aren't one of the Unforgivable Curses. I didn't see this coming actually. I had thought they'd be happy that I managed to take down some suspicious dark wizards, who obviously were going to do more harm than good. I didn't see too many Aurors giving me the stink-eye, but the prim and proper folk in the Ministry like to appear one way and act another. These were dangerous people. If they had managed to send that item to a muggle, or worse, a student at Hogwarts, and it killed them, would they be so quick to turn these monsters into martyrs? Would they be so quick to punish me for doing my job when we have Voldemort alive and well? Everyone who looks like his ally must be treated like his ally, that is the only way to keep people safe.
Thomas
Diggory
Prewitt
Longbottom
Bones
Crouch
Potter
Black
...Falguerra...I found an old picture of our parents today, they looked happy. They were in the "old country", dressed for a wedding, I think. Oh, Ilsa looks so much like father...and momma...before she went to Azkaban.
The list goes on and on. I know their names and will not forget them, because they, like so many others, are who paid the price for our complacency.
I wanted to tell him where he could shove his reprimand. But, because I love my job, and need the money, I nod, apologize, and leave with my tail between my legs. But I know the truth...
We should not be shielding ourselves from the reality of Voldemort's return. We should embrace the panic this causes, the fear we feel as we think back to the First Wizarding War and remember what he is capable of. We should inform the muggles, bolster the aurors, and follow the example of the late Barty Crouch Sr. A few "innocent" Death Eaters in Azkaban are a small price to pay for thes safety of the entire wizarding world.