Post by Deleted on Jun 25, 2013 22:08:52 GMT -5
February 12th, 1997
I had a feeling I might use one of these eventually. Even though at heart a small part of me also doubted it, yet here I am. Never have I felt a diary of any sorts would help but perhaps I was wrong. I just need to get this down somewhere, before I fear that I might go mad with emotional overload.
The last few months have been rather well strange and eventful. Hogsmeade for example became under attack by my own kind, the end results disastrous. The strange part of it all? I just don’t quite know how to feel about it. So, many new emotions have come over me as of lately. Some familiar, some not so familiar. Like someone, somewhere is punishing me. Goodness me that sounded ridiculous, where had that come from?
Why am I writing this? Even my words aren’t coming together as a sentence now. Argh. Lucas has come in to my life too. A good man with a heart I feel, however he has his rather shall, we say unique way of showing things. I fear that I may have somehow angered him. Just… hmmmm, I feel like I am responsible for the rather curious change in him. Then again I could be looking to deep in to these things as usual.
Sirius still lingers in the back of my mind day after day. Nightmares continue to haunt me in to the twilight hours. Numbing my emotions and making me feel like drowning in my sorrows. Dark places, places that are unspeakable. What is going on with me lately? I don’t know anymore.
Perhaps I should head to bed. That is if my mind will allow me to sink in to a peaceful sleep. Who knows? Tonight might be my lucky night.